Why Me?

When one of life’s misfortunes strike so many mixed emotions follow. It could be bad news, a financial struggle, health issues, loss of a loved one, failure at school or work… We’ve all been there and we’ve all had to battle some sort of misfortune… the list goes on…

At first the news washes over you like a gush of cold water, washing your entire body and soul with a sensation of shock and disbelief as nothing has prepared you for what’s happening. Your heart starts racing, beating like it could tear through your chest, your palms start sweating, your head becomes light, your breath becomes heavier and suddenly everything is spinning. The room, your thoughts, the past, the present everything morphs into one giant hurricane spinning around you as you try in vain to grasp whatever you can to avoid being blown away. Inevitably you start pondering about the unexpected misfortune while the questions start flooding in… How could this happen? Why did this happen? Why me? What did I do wrong? Am I being punished? And the worst question of it all is why isn’t it happening to somebody else? So many questions start rising as one starts reaching out for closure over what’s taking place. Fear and disbelief turn into anger and rage. You try to regain your breath you try to stop the spinning as you allow the calamity to wash over you… and then the tears start pouring… like the rain… slowly washing away at your broken soul.

Everybody talks about the misfortunes that come with life’s tribulations… No one talks about all the things you gain… No one talks about the realization of how strong you discover you truly are. There’s a strength in you that you never knew existed… Suddenly everythig becomes more clear. You learn who your true friends are as masks are suddenly shed away. You gain perspective of things; suddenly the matters that used to consume you like having a shortage of help, debt, missing a vacation, a messy home, stubborn children, a difficult boss, extra weight… all seem secondary. Nothing is troubling you as much as the tribulation taking place right now and everything else that used to trouble you in the past, all of a sudden seem so small.. Oh what you would give to go back to life before the tribulation. You learn how fickle life is, that there is no certainty except for the certainty of God Al Mighty and you become more pious. 

When I asked myself why me? What did I do wrong and is this a punishment I came to the realization that all the prophets who were almost as pure as the angels went through major calamities themselves… and that thought comforted me… perhaps I was being cleansed… perhaps I was gaining perspective… perhaps it was another reminder that this life is temporary and that nothing in this life truly belongs to us… It all belongs to God Al Mighty. The prophets in Islam and in many other religions went through several calamities and tribulations but were always protected by the Al Mighty so what makes us think we are any better with all our sins? 

If I can give one word of advice after what I’ve experienced it is to allow the feelings of confusion, the rage, the disbelief, the questions allow all of it.. allow the shock, allow it all to wash all over you and after you are done mourning and after your breathing stabilizes and your heart beat starts going back to a normal rhythm then you can ask the ultimate question which is this, What do I need to do to take care of myself in order to move forwards with this. How do I cope? How do I ask for help when I need it? Cause like it or not life, your family, your friends, time, they all move forwards, nothing is going to stop for your misfortune… True friends will sympathize, family will offer warm support but only you and you alone can truly lift yourself up and face the storm. You must rise above this misfortune. You must take care of yourself and make the best of the situation. You learn to return to God. At first it is inconceivable that there is a best to the situation. At first it feels like it’s the end… the end of everything. However something magical does happen… suddenly… and without expecting it everything else in life seems small… what you used to agonize about suddenly becomes secondary as now your entire focus is on the calamity you are experiencing and how to get through it. The magical thing is that you will make it through. You learn to relinquish control and surrender all to God and to trust God and trust yourself that you will get through it just as everyone around you has gone through theirs. Keep hopeful and enjoy living. Be more intentional about your life and choose to live in the present for this is the only thing you can control. Be grateful and thankful for the strength you never knew you had, for the lessons you are learning and for the small and the big pleasures in life that you once took for granted. You will get through this.

The good news is nothing lasts forever, the bad news is nothing lasts forever.

Twenty Years From Now

Twenty years from now you will wish to return to this age precisely. You will wish to return to this health, these features, these details of your daily life that you once found ordinary. You will realize that the normal days you used to complain about were in fact a blessing you never really paid attention to.

So pause a little, take a deep breath and be more mindful of the present moment you are living in. Live life with gratitude rather than resentment. The trips to the grocery store mean that you have a home and can afford to put food on the table, the worn out sneakers you wear are a sign that you are able to exercise and prioritize your health, the regular cup of coffee which you see as mundane is a delicacy to have handed to you in your very home, your loud family? A sign that you are part of a family and that you are not alone… all of these things which seem mundane are in fact details of a happy life. That is why a lot of people live as prisoners of the past because they only realize the beauty of the present after it has passed.

So book that trip, take in the warm breeze, get that tan on the beach you were dreaming of and eat that last piece of chocolate soufflé. Life is happening right now, in the midst of the ordinary. Do not postpone living or take the present for granted for what you see as normal today you will miss tomorrow. Treat today as a miracle and you will see the miracle of your life unfold before your very eyes.

رسالة امتنان

الحمد لك يا الله على عام مضى من عمري و انا بأحسن حال. عام مضى من عمري كان مليئا باللحظات الحلوة و المفاجئات السارة. عاما مليئ بلطفك الخفي. احمدك يا رب على كل يوم مر بي وانا محاطة باهلي و اصحابي، على كل يوم شهدت فيه شمسك و سمائك و روائع خلقك. يا الله اعبر لك عن امتناني و شكري لعام مضى من عمري وانا محاطة بكل هذا الخير و ادعوك الى عام مقبل فيه المزيد من الخيرات و المزيد من عطاياك الكريمة. أدعوك يا الله بأن تمدني بالصحة و العافية أنا و أحبابي أجمعين و ان تغمرني بالرزق الوفير و الحياة الكريمة الطيبة. اللهم اني أسألك سكينة القلب و اكتفاء الروح و الرضا، الرضا لما قدرته لي سواء كان خير أم شر و ان تحببني بكل عمل صالح يقربني اليك و يدخلني الجنة آمين يا رب العالمين

A Different Kind Of Eid 🕌

Something inconceivable happened to us this Ramadan. What started out as a peaceful month of worship ended as a turbulent month of instability and uncertainty. My country, a country whose main purpose was centered upon peace, prosperity and compassion towards us and others was being brutally attacked by Iran in a war we neither started nor participated in. Our calm nights became a center stage for loud missiles and drones. Our days became a series of siren alerts on our phones and on our streets. Roads became blocked and security guarded every area and scanned every vehicle and pedestrian. The explosions in the air shook our windows and our spirits. Sounds so unfamiliar to us were becoming customary as through the nights and days we hear missiles and drones being immaculately intercepted. Suddenly nothing else seemed as important as the safety of our country and our leaders. For what could be more important than protecting our very home? Our country handled the attacks with the utmost efficiency all the while assuring the nation that it will keep us safe. This effective and comforting nature of handling the war with grace and commitment whilst ensuring the wellbeing of it’s people was nothing new to the UAE. The UAE is a pioneer in dealing with crisis with the absolute care and comfort of its people coming first. In return we have complete trust in our nation and our government and we will not be defeated. We will once again rise while being reminded of the preciousness of this life and this country of ours. This is going to be a temporary set back, a tribulation in which we rise stronger and more determined than ever.

For now though it’s going to be a different kind of Eid. It’s going to be a time of solidarity and unity. The enemy might have instilled in us fear but it shall never shake our spirits. We will continue to pray for our country and we will never again take anything for granted. Quiet mornings, lazy routines, repetitive days now seem like privileges. So this Eid despite being different, we will cherish the time spent with family, we will hug each other a little longer and we shall play with children a little harder. We shall be more present and more faithful and grateful for the little things before the big things and we shall continue to pray for our country, our soldiers and our leaders. We shall continue to pray for our nation that lays awake at night guarding us so we could have this Eid and so we could cherish these little moments in this unpredictable thing called life.

Ramadan 2026

Here it is again, as promised by the lord above, the month of holiness, the month of supplication, the month of total submission to God almighty. Here is the month of the Quran the month where Muslims unite as one in their submission to God. Here is the much anticipated month of Ramadan the month of offering and perseverance. The month that while we fast we are reminded of those less fortunate who are bereft from food all year round and not just in one month… may this Ramadan continue to cleanse our souls as it cleanses our bodies and may it remind us of how privileged we truly. As we gather around the table during for iftar let as praise the lord for all the food before us and the silent blessings around us and may we maintain our devotion to the rest of the months to come. Ramadan Mubarak 🌙

Winter Breeze

There’s no better way to start the year than with the cool winter breeze teasing my face and tickling my body. I am mesmerized by the surge of contentment that fills me up when the weather is cool. Winters in the UAE are a time where families huddle together around the bonfire in the desert, it is a time of barbecues, hot cocoas and children squealing with delight. Being a desert country we welcome the cool breeze with open arms, and when it rains we marvel at the droplets showering our dusty homes and flooding our heat stricken streets. My mood is always lifted in the winter and with Ramadan on the way I couldn’t be happier. Wishing you all the joy in this crisp and chilly winter. Let us make the most of this short period of coolness that we endure and let us anticipate the blessed month of Ramadan on the way. Much love 🌧️ 

The Best Is Yet To Come❣️

القادم أجمل باذن الله❣️

As we close the chapter on another year and open the one to a new one I reminisce on the highlights and the lowlights of it all. What grasps my attention is the factors that kept me grounded, the factors that gave me strength and kept me going. I am forever indebted to my marriage and to my children and to my family. Having my family’s support, my children’s love and a solid marriage (far from perfect yet solid) gives me strength and gives me a sense of purpose in life. I am also indebted to my faith which gives me direction. For those factors that give me strength and direction I am forever grateful for without them I would not have a sense of purpose or belonging. Next come my friends. I’ve formed bonds and friendships that lasted the test of time and for that I am also forever grateful. So when you look back at the past year look not just at the experiences but look at what kept you grounded what kept you strong and what gave you purpose. Eternally grateful to God for reminding me I’m not alone, that I have God in my heart, safety amongst my people and that I’m grounded in my life. Looking forwards to the new year… the best is yet to come. 🌷

When You’re In Your 40’s…

When you’re in your 40’s something magical occurs. A certain serenity descends on you and you’re suddenly calmer, softer and more tranquil… you’ve gained wisdom from life’s lessons. You’ve failed yet gotten up again this time stronger and more recovered. Life starts to look like a painting and you are the observer admiring every single stroke… the bright and the dark. You have more patience and you’ve built a resilience forever protecting you from further discouragements. You enjoy and appreciate the moment and you look back and tell yourself “Yes.. I’ve lived…” You start to focus on what truly matters like love, family and faith. Your health becomes a priority and your time becomes your investment spending it only on what adds value to you. You’ve learned to unapologetically get up from the table when love is no longer served… the forties is the age where you appreciate the past whilst anticipate the future with a clearer mind and a refreshed soul it is an elite access to peace with life still ahead with the promise of a greater tomorrow.

Letter of Recommendation 

October 22, 2025 

To Whom It May Concern: 

It is with great pride that I write this letter of recommendation for my daughter Noora Alkhaja. Mothers will often praise their own children; however, praise alone doesn’t do justice to this bright young lady. As a middle child Noora learned from such a young age to be independent and to stand out. From the mere age of one Noora as a baby girl learned to stand on her own, walk on her own and even eat on her own. Being the middle child in the family also taught her to be assertive and determined in standing out which she did remarkably. Noora is a star as she shines bright with her determination and assertiveness.  

Noora is always learning and always creating. Besides excelling at school and presenting all her schoolwork and school projects with the utmost precision, she is also an artist and a lot of her artwork display technique that goes beyond her age. Outside of school she also embraces many talents. For instance, she started to show a great interest in crochet, and at the very young age of eleven she started her own crochet business crocheting some of the most unique patterns and figures and putting them up for sale. Noora is a determined young lady who never gives up. I still painfully remember how when she was about thirteen years old while practicing her horse riding she had a major accident. The horse galloped out of control throwing her headfirst on to the fence where she acquired major bruises and had to be rushed immediately to the hospital. Despite the major accident Noora still never gave up. It took some time as she persisted and persevered to get back up on the horse again but she did it and today she is quite the equestrian. Noora was selected to talk in the schools TED talks and I sat proudly listening to my daughter talk eloquently on the subject of the Importance of Compassion. She is kind and gentle, everyone big and small feels at ease around her. Today as a young lady she is full of wit, charm and capability making her the perfect friend and a splendid daughter.  

I am confident that Noora will achieve great things and will continue to thrive in an institution that encourages growth and innovation. A simple recommendation letter doesn’t even begin to portray all the marvel that my daughter Noora embodies. I truly admire the well-rounded young lady my daughter Noora has become and I look forwards to seeing more of her achieving great things. 

Best Regards, 

Sarah Alkhaja 

Mother of Noora Alkhaja 

I Thank Me

As I sat alone at night unwinding in front of the television my hand rested gently on my belly as memoires started flooding in my mind. I started to gently rub my belly and I thanked it for carrying my children.. even the one I didn’t get to hold… I thanked it for all the trauma and pain it has gone through for me.. never letting me down… I then put my hand gently on my chest and I thanked my heart… for all the heartache.. for all the pain it has endured while still making room for joy… then I rubbed my arms.. the ones that held me when no one was there to hold me… for helping me carry my children and helped me wash my body and eat my meals… for constantly moving and tending to my needs… then I moved to my head… my head trying to cope with all its anxious thoughts while still persevering throughout the day… today I’m going to be gentle and grateful with myself for the dark days I overcame and for the bright days I thankfully experienced and shall continue to experience with my body holding it together for me…